Original Title
かわいい君の涙を舐めたい。睨まれたい。
Synopsis
Thud, thud. I am being corrupted. I dream
Houu-chan: model student, pretty, socially gifted, universally beloved.
Her smile is adorable, just like a dog’s. Once, just once, I ruffled and kneaded her cheeks with both hands. The look on her face afterwards, her whole attitude, as if to say do it more — so comfortable, so willing. Quite endearing.
I find Houu-chan endearing.
I have come to find her endearing.
She’s come to think I find her endearing.
Smarter than Houu-chan, yet a problem student. No charm to speak of, socially inept, treated like a leper. Bad at smiling, though I can manage a sullen expression just fine. That someone like her should have taken a liking to me.
How pitiful.
Poor Houu-chan.
You see, I do love that adorable smile of yours.
But it’s precisely because I love it that I find myself wanting, so desperately, to see something else.
Your face when you cry. And then, that face consumed entirely by fury.
………It makes me shiver.
And beyond that, well. If I’m allowed to want more, then:
From you, so guileless and carefree — contempt, scorn, anything will do.
For now, just with those cold, cold eyes of yours that make me feel like I’m about to be abandoned.
I want you to glare at me.
Content warnings: Cruel depictions / Violence / Sexual content
The original Japanese Web Novel can be found on kakuyomu.
Author: 紅日もも